It's a Tuesday...! Pretty uneventful sides th hard jog during lunch. Feels good to get out under th sun and perspire, push my limits when I can. Think I might go for a short jog later tonight again, but with my paintball vest weighted with water bottles...just to train...
Anyhoo, Mel and I are talking like how we were when I left Melbourne last November, cept that our roles are kinda switched. ;p I miss her very much, but I afraid of falling into th same hole that always comes up with her: given enough time, she usually loses interest or doesn't think about me anymore...
Call it prudence, call it paranoia, call it fear or worry, I just am afraid of letting her bring me up high, and letting me fall again. Granted I partly am also at fault for letting her string me along at her pace.
...one does illogical and stupid things when one is in love with someone else. I am dumb, I must admit. I should let her go and go my own way, but I don't want to leave her web she needs me...although ironically, I always needed her and wanted her more.
I miss the smell of her hair, the feel of her skin, the taste of her lips...I do miss her so much still.
Granted it's not as bad as last Sunday night, hoo, that was miserable. (:'\
Oh well...that's it for now I guess.
Out.
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